to the punkass peep

i dunno what you're doing stay away from my girl if i ever saw you i swear i'll kill you

just you wait asshole peep

A new year and a NEW MOON......

yesterday ... the day 31/12/2009 and today 1/1/2010 as i look up at the in the night and midnight

the moon was so brightly so beautifully but when i look at it i felt something strange

it was a strange feeling that i felt :( a bad feeling which i dunno what it was ....

fear.... disappointed at something... or was it something else that bothers me ...

i dunno at all ....

darling was so worry at me i wish i won't had this feeling at all ...

so many time's i wasted trying to know what wrong with me

darling was putting so much effort ... trying to help me with this T_T

everything that i spent at yesterday party was wasted i miss the count down every thing in it the food's.... "damn myself for acting like this" haiz ....

after the party i got home still trying to figure it out but i still can't

i call my darling have a little chat but yet something was still not right with it

within me i was having so much difficulty of sleeping and spread of tears was trying to come out ...

but ...

i can't let out not because i want to its because i dunno how to ...

would be the problem to solve by letting tears flow through my cheeks .... who knows ???

minutes after minutes i pass out...

i was having so much nightmare which i can't tell what it is...

and now i finally know what was i feeling .....

it was fear... after hours and hours trying to figure it ... it was fear that what my heart felt...

why i'm scared ... its because a new year has come and in deep future on i'm afraid that i might not able to treasure her heart... my beautiful lady...my darling that i most love...

i dun want to lose her again i wanted to spent the rest of my life with her

and if she went to overseas in the future i'm afraid that i wasn't able to have her ... i don't want to let go of this feeling that i share with darling ... whether it cause many things to suffer or it cause my life i want to be with you forever not as friends but as in what we felt among each other ....

another sadness in my feelings ..... a matter that controls mind

GOD damn IT i hate to be freakishly emo and i din't want to feel that way

haiz so much hatred in me ... i wonder why am i such an idiot ...

i'm turning back to the feeling of anxious d and i don't want it that way ... feels like i'm so greedy .... i wanna makes things right for now change myself not trying to be like this ...

i hoped darling understand what i'm feeling now and hoped that she's is not dissapoint or frustrated at me .... and also i hope she can help me with this ... problem ..

The end ~ of 2009...a brand new year for 2010

2009 is over by a day d ....

yesterday wake up brush teeth ....==

and i after that i waited for the party to come ^^

i can't hardly wait to see my beautiful and lovely darling....

i miss her so much...

so i play COD : modern warfare 2 till my friend (keng long) come fetch me there ... this game is so freaking nice the graphics is super crystal clear human's are so real so love this game

few hours pass by i pack up and get ready for my friend and few seconds later he arrive :D

his mom took us to eat "Bah Kut Teh" .... and than we eat and I chat with friends (keng long and eugene) include my friends mom :D

After we eat my friend mom take us to our friends (jong bor) house for the party but we were 5 hours early == and i was suggesting to go to aeon bbt to watch movie XD cause i got a free ticket for any movie :D some of my friends suggested not to go while some wanted to go (kar chun , chong yi) .... i so pity keng long have to carry his guitar from jong bor house to aeon bbt just to put new string haha because jong bor tune it until it guitar string break haha XD and eugene was following to because he needed a stuff for his contact lens ...

so we left jong bor house and start walking to jusco took some time to get there...

on the way we say one of our friends father (nigel) he was asking us where we were going so we told him by pointing out the big parking lot mall (aeon bbt) which is a few metres away after many minutes of distance we have walk to reach aeon bbt ...

when nigel's father left eugene shouted at him "fetch us larh !!! " and than i came laughing and nigel's father turn back and look i act like nothing happen and hustle my way to the mall ..

finally seconds after minutes after minutes....

we have arrive at the mall haha so sweaty took us long enough to reach there XD

there wasn't much to see at more what the cinema was showing now ...

so we decided to watch sherlock holmes this movie was so funny and got lots about science fiction he is so good at solving things...

but too bad all the audience that are watching with me don't understand what the movie was saying....

so... less laugh from the audience only some people understand XD haha

kar chun and chong yi which were watching with me thought i gone insane laugh for no reason but actually is because of the movie XD

after watching we went back to jong bor house some people have arrive but 2 of them left for their church (gabriel , samson)

haix.... pity them

the party was going to start i was so impatient awaiting to start the fun and also see my darling ^^ when she arrives she was so beautiful as always XD catching my attraction XD

when the party started the excitement also started XD one of our friends mom (andy) is so funny she make so much funny jokes haha XD laugh until stomachache haha XD

and than my when for a walk with me darling hehe ^^ i didn't get what i wanna say cause my idiotic head keep making me to forget ==

oh... how i wish i turn back the time and tell how much i love my darling and she was so beautiful on that day..

and i would like to thanks my darling for solving my problems which i have gone through it for days and weeks d.... "baby if you got read this i wanna thank you for helping me solve my problem ... your the best darling ever i ♥ you so much ^^ "

when my darling play jong bor's sister piano she was so passionate when playing it :D and every song she plays touch my heart XP .... darling is so lovely ^^

so hours and hours pass by

which our days almost come's to and end and a count down also started XD

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!

but i miss some of the things due to some of my problems :'(

or maybe i thing i miss out a lot of it ....

days have come to and end and we all left when the party is over was a nice party i can say ^^

3 days has past i miss you a lot since you when to singapore

but today night you be coming back i can't wait to talk to you

i miss you so much i been thinking of you all day

but disappointment is running in my head i wonder...

wonder that could i have hope to apply into science stream

god i hope i can apply to that ...

Regret~~

haizzzz PMR result come out le get not good result
haiz 1a 2b 3c 1d so sad T.T ...

haiz i cannot get new hp le i'm stuck with this stupid retarded motorola razx v3xx

dunno can apply to science stream i hope can apply until

GOD PLEASE help me i dun wanna go art

i regret everything in my studies for not putting effort and more time on it

GOD IF you give me a chance to apply science stream and i swear to you that i will put efforts on my studies and get lots of A in all my subjects ... Please god help me ....

~~and i wanna wish a congratulations to my friends that get A1 and congratz to dar dar although her chinese get b but she can have her new hp d Congratulation darling ^^~~

a death note at 24 / 12 / 2009

aRGH PMR paper result coming d argh

Nice date for us to take == 24-12-2009

brain gonna pop off if i see my result haix

of course i won't be satisfied about it de nvm larh ...

next year must put effort on studies d

study until i improve a lot for one reason ....

secret which i cannot tell out :P

only my lovely darling knows haha :D

hope i go science if not i go account

and i think add maths is gonna be so fun to learn HEHE~HEHE

Uh LALA ~~ ALL the BEST TO MY SINS of results ~ A MI TA BHA~

oh ya and hope darling get good result also ^^

~~lifeless love ~~

What most probably we can't live without

more Money ... food ... clothes or something else than that ??

to me is nothing much from this kind of people

not money , not food

but

the love from you

oh darling you are so important to me

oh how much i can't live without you...

more than everything

for every air i breathe...

is what i felt in you

you meant so much to me

how far the distance from us that make us apart ... i feel you right by my side

every hour ...seconds ....

hearts are never meant to race...

hearts are never meant to haste for what we share now is so unbelievable

feels right ...feels good to stand by your side and hold you

and...

whisper through your hair to your ear and tell you ...

i love you

as i crawl to you when i'm weak slowly by slowly...

i'll be able to walk again

and be strong enough to jump when my love is close to you

and i'll be able to fly with you ... when we're together...

sharing with what we use to share...

love thats what we call...

no matter how we been through love will never carry us away...apart...

will always sore at the sky and touch the sky ...

together

i will never say goodbye for what we share now is what i will maintain it hold it....

till my last breathe...

till my soul is totally vanish ...

as always...

you'll be in my heart

for eternity

as i say once again...

i love you...

with every heart...

every soul...

in me

ALvin ho

Christmas~~

Christmas is coming ohh how i always wanted a gift from santa ^^
i hoped i get a new phone as my Christmas gift
my hp spoil d can't chat with my darling T_T
sometimes chat at msn can't think of something to talk with darling T_T
.... what i want for chirstmas was not actually to have a phone
is to be with darling .... and my birthday gift for her will be my heart from me

bored days , missing you and hearing songs

Holiday are so boring but Christmas is coming soon ^^

Days pass by i miss you more, bits my bits , seconds turns minutes ...

every songs i hear i'm thinking of you...

this song by

Low Shoulder - Through The Trees . . . . is so nice to hear ^^ makes me thing of you

this song is one of the soundtrack from Jennifers body

here is the link if you wanna here

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dC6se7MdOsw&feature=related

and the lyrics is down hear :P

All alone in an empty room
Nothing left but the memories of when I had my best frIend
I don't know how we ended up here
I don't know but it's never been so clear
We made a mistake, dear.
And I see the broken glass in front of me
I see your shadow hangIng over me
and your face, I can see...

Through the trees
I wIll find you;
I wIll heal the ruins left inside you
cuz I'm stIll here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathIng now...
untIl I'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees

I remember how we used to talk
about the places we would go when we were off
and all that we were gonna find.
And I remember our seeds grow
and how you cried when you saw
the first leaves show.
The love was pouring from your eyes.

So can you see
the branches hanging over me?
Can you see
the love you left inside of me?
in my face
can you see?

Through the trees
I will find you;
I will heal the ruins left inside you.
Cuz I'm still here breathing now
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
until I'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees.

Cuz you're not coming back
And you're not coming back
No-oo.. No-oo.. No
You're not coming back...
You're not coming back...

Take my breath as your own
Take my eyes to guide you home

Cuz I'm still here breathing now...
I'ms till here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And I'm still here...

Cuz I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And I'm still here..

Cuz I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And I'm still here..

But you're not coming back.
And you're not coming back.
Cuz you're not coming back
until I'm set free
Go quiet through the trees.

~Alvin Ho~

understanding & promise

Everytime we argue i try to understand what when wrong

Whenever your angry i'll do whatever it takes to make you feel better

If your sad i will comfort you ,just to see that beautiful smiling face of yours ...

When you are lonely i'll be the one to accompany you

You too would do the same thing for me when i'm at this situation

Your beautiful face always got me attracted

Every time i hold you ... feels like your by my side

your my one in a million

there will be one girl in my heart

and that girl will be you

my love for you shall never fade as days , weeks , months and years pass by it will remain the same and no matter how far are you i can feel that your just beside me

i wanna shout out your name and tell you i really love you

and...

all i ever wanted is just to love you

i will never break your heart

i will never leave you

i will never break your promise

cause your very important to me

There is nobody else like you ..

that can make me feel better no one but you only

Our trust and belief is so strong that....

No one will rip us apart ... no one

let no argument or jealousness can make us apart

not even a misunderstanding

we will be the perfect soulmate

let our love last forever even after our after lifes

I love You Darling always and forever

The light

In the darkness,
I found your light.
When all was hopeless,
your beauty shown bright.

When all was lost
you gave me life.
You brought me joy
instead of strife.

Now i think of you
every day and night.
you came into my life
and made everything right.

take this from internet :P

Alvinho

Dark gloomy sky fading

finally the days of sadness are over

dark skies are turning bright white again

my heart from a cold broken heart has turn into warm by the girl i truly love

you manage to pick up a falling apple before it drops to the ground

i will do the same thing as you do to cheer me up

i will cherish your heart properly

Thank you darling

your the best darling in the entire universe

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

things i didn't expect

Last night we argue a lot ...

i thought things got better..

when you chat with me again ..

turns out it wasn't ..

things were getting worse than i expected ...

a little faith and believe you had on me ...

was none ...

i was really sad when you said those ...

when i ask do you love me ...

you replied as you ran away from that question

you ask me that do i love you ...

my answer is always a yes cause i really love you and...

i always love you ..

since the day i first saw you until now

its been 3 years ..

i still have this feeling and i'm not letting it go

never and always

when you ran away from that question my heart starts aching ..

every single second the aching strikes my heart...

i couldn't hold it cause it really hurts a lot...

i can't even slept well...

every single second my heart keep aching

i dreamt of losing you which makes me awake in the middle of the night

tears near flow through my eye

i'm starting to panic a lot and fear has over-calm me

i can't even sleep well yesterday

i don't want to loose you not again

i know your feeling the same way as me and i know your really disappoint at me

i should have not show my moodiness i should have listen to you

I'm worried about you ..

Darling lets go back to the times we care about each other..

the times we have faith and believe on each other ..

lets not take the wrong road..

ppl makes mistake not just once a lot of times

lets try to understand what when wrong

i really can't live without you darling

i can't forgive myself for the mistakes i've done

i'm really sorry for what i have done is truly wrong

i really care for you a lot.... love you a lot.... i really can't live without you

i want you back ..

i want...

the darling that use to always cheer me up , make me thing positively ..

the darling that use to believe and care a lot ...

the darling that use to always say i love you dar dar whenever i always confess to her

i'm sorry

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I've type 99 I love you to you darling

i need one more....the no. 100. is from you

darling i'm really sorry for my doing's today

don't leave me please i'll make things better

please darling i'm really sorry ... come back please

i can't live without you darling

I"M SORRY

I LOVE YOU

today 11/11/2009 RIGHTS

today .. wednesday 11/11/2009 is the worst day for me
everything was going all right till a moment till the next day everything started to turn out wrong

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS ,SUDDENLY ALL KIND OF GOOD THINGS TURN OUT BAD THINGS

I PROMISE MYSELF ON THIS DAY ONWARDS
I AM GOING TO MAKE THINGS THAT I WANT
I AM GONNA MAKE IT
~~RIGHT~~

2012 coming on 12 november

wah 2012 tomorrow start le want go watch but friday only go hehe

so nice see our earth die muahaha

wakakaka!!!!!

yeah on friday day go watch 2012 with my friends

2012 HERE I COME Wait FOR ME

I"M COMING !!!

HOPE GOT SEATS

Emotional power sometimes are strong ~~

Loving you is what i always do to tell you....

i love you ..every single hour ..

every single minute ...

every single second and moment ....

but sometimes ..

&

someday the power of emotional feeling might control my feelings...

& negative thinking might come inside of my mind and i might start asking stupid questions...

emotional power really can over take our mind .. and also over take our feelings

i'm trying not to let it control over me... sweetie i hope you understand this

i nearly lost you today ... because we still share the same feeling and love each other ...

we manage to solve this situation

i'm sorry for my doing's i won't let control me again ....

EMO SUCKS MAN BUT ITS A POWERFUL THING THAT OVER COMES PPL BUT YET STILL EMO SUCKS

TAKE MY ADVISE PPL DO NOT TAKE EMO AS A GOOD THING

YOU WILL REGRET

ALVIN

nothing will stop us .....

i will not stop moving until you be mine
i will not stop until i get closer to you
i will not stop loving you

no one will stop us from being together
no one will steal your heart from me

you will be the one and only sweetie i love the most
no one else
but .....
you

i will treasure you beside my heart
i will love you for eternity

my love for you will never die
&
it is an everlasting love for you

ALvin Ho

Having few words to say

Holidays damn boring

Nothing to do

What to do ????

I damn Suck at writing blog ...........................haha

I Love You Sweetie

Your the best Sweetie EVER

and love you forever Sweetie

I miss you Sweetie

SY faster plan when want go GENTING ARGH !!!

WAKAKAKAKAKA!!! ^^

Perak trip

wah last friday want go play BKB at the end my mom said have to go perak to meet my grandparents
damn suck larh but still its nice to go there haha go many nice things to eat
YUM YUM ...Muahaha

Miss you alot travelling there SWEETIE !! T_T
go there see my cousins all so busy one of my cousin bring his gf come my grandparents house she looks okay ...
but haha she is no match with my Sweetie Beauty ^^

the day i leave my grandparents home and come back to klang i started to miss them but i was excited to come back haha ^^

on the way come back the time got car sickness damn it headache so i sleep at the car
at the end still have to fetch my that at KLIA after his business trip

The time that i wanna spend with you 5/10/2009

Today go JJ with my friends and you ....
running impatient to see you XD

in the afternoon ... wait for you till you come to Vivo restaurant....
but
before that me and my friends hang out at MCD than a sales guy come and interview with us about a product so he sell us a pouch for dunno how much can't remember and free us another 5 pouch....
so i gave one of the pouch to you since i dun want.. and its no point giving my mom cause my mom like L.V. stuffs .. but i think you'll like it ^^

after everyone came including you.. We all eat at Vivo restaurant ...
after eating my friends decided to go watch movie
but the time crash cause we haven't finish our meal

so all decided to go Green Box

Gosh... every time i look at you i can't stop looking ...haha ^^ ((your truly beautiful ))^^
Love you so much ^^ ... when the time i hug you i really dun wanna let go ...but i have to ...
cause you ask me to go sing ... Your so cute when you pretend to ignore me at the end i saw your smiling face ^^(( SO CUTE HAHA....))

~my time almost come to an end of today....~

(If Only Time Can Be Pause For The Moment We Spent Together )
when its time for me to go home ... i was like wishing to have more time
before i go home i gave you a kiss but you avoid it ...((nice...)) so i kiss your hand n when home ^^

I love you so much ....^^ ..
No matter what happens to us you'll always be the Diamond in my heart

Alvin HO

**My Shinning Star** XD

this is just a short poem that i make by myself and i dedicate this poem to the person i truly love ^^

In the reality world
Stars are just suns
That shine far beyond from our planet
Every night star shine's at the sky
I looked at it and stare at it
For a long distance of time
When i stare at it

Makes me think of you
Makes me think that you are "My Star"
My Star that shine's every night
My Star that shines in my heart
My Star that shine's so bright that not even other stars shine's like you
My Star that would never fade away

its a little bit complicating reading it haha ^^

Alvin Ho

Holidays ~coming soon ~ & boringness sometimes KILLS ppl

Holidays is coming soon d
I wonder is there anything fun or activities to do ..??

lucky i'm gonna learn swimming and electric guitar this week ^^
&
Hope i get to go Johor and Singapore for vacation
and meet my cousins

there's nothing much i can do now everyday
sit down , online , chat , play dota when ever friends call me to play ...
damn boring la everyday do like that ...BORING KILLS ME whenever i felt bored
but
there is one thing that always keeps me happy and prevent from getting bored ...
haha private cannot tell ^^

oh ya i forget i wanna thanks to Carmen for helping me edit and customizing my blog profile
thank you so much
MUACKZ ^^

My First Blog ^^

Haha finally create blog d
but i damn lazy to introduce myself la
well since i see a lot of my friends got blog i wanna try out...
how nice is it ..
but i wonder what to write ??? haha

well this blog will be all about me and expression
well maybe not about me only.....
maybe this blog will be my journey and my diary
to what i seek in my journey of my life and what i wanna write due to my expression ...

well that's all i can write for this first post ^^

more updates coming soon ... haha

Alvin Ho