immature

Its unbelievable lot of ppl thinking are so immature

facts is the best thing

some how i wish to be a heartless person

i thought i forget everything but the stain is always there

why your always in my mind

was it i'm still not over you

joey jie jie was right i'm still like you maybe not like but more than that

but i can't accept everything i'm screwed on feelings

some how i wish to forget everything since its over but i can't

its my memory my history my paradise my happiness

i don't hold hatred from me some how

what am i waiting for

what am i doing

what am i feeling

what can i do

i don't have a life

i'm thinking immaturely

i'm acting like a small baby wanting you but some how i can't let you in

i don't know anything and for now i dunno what to say

all i can say is those feeling never goes ever

how bitchy you are to me i still have those feeling

i don't intend to see you cause i don't want to drop my tears down in front of you

after so much you hurt me

i intend to be single and stay in this forever not to be hurt again

if i wanted to have a relationship i intend not to do too much

my feelings never change

don't know why

if its puppy love i can forget you but what is more than this ..... true love who knows ....

GOD PLEASE SAVE ME AND TELL ME WHAT TO DO

words in me

there are so many things i wanna say but i dunno how to say what to say

can't really express out what i wanna say

as i say i am so complicated

my mind is all about but i'm trying to accept faith desirability

I'M a mind changer

just back from group study

maggi and gene gave me so many solution to sleep well

cause i can't sleep properly this past few days maybe weeks

mom don't let me sleep at living room

some how my living room sofa hurts me back

and i got back ache

and i'm thinking i'm gonna die very soon

can't sleep

i think i got insomnia

whats next heart attack arr

heart broken can really stress some one to death

i walk back with gene talk alot of stuff

and believe me he is so damn lucky to have his girl because

his girl is good the way he care about gene all this

so good

gene told me what is love

Love means that you trust the person, would do anything for the person, know that person is with you through thick and thin, isn't afraid to be seen with you. make sure they treat you right

some how he told me that love is not depends on feeling

and he says girls mostly take majority advice that is given

i've been blaming myself the whole time but i notice this after he told me

some how i hope you understand what i mean what i feel

choices of choosing have consequences will be big will be small

i can't wake up still i'm still blonded by the dark realm

some how i wanna give up on my studies to

i can't focus and i dun have efforts and i don't have confidence

waiting waiting what am i waiting i dunno at all

all i know is i miss you

and i L**e you

i kept thinking of you even i dun want to

i'm such nuisance

some how i dun like some of your friends

HL is the best and good friend among all your friend that i can see and siew X2 and RH and MS and SY AND EILIN too

friends help me so so much after tragedies

they keep saying why i so emo even though i don't look like one

maybe i'm hiding it

i can't even talk to you face to face cause my breath will halt me and i can't talk its like the cassette is spoil i never even change this i been playing this song the same old time the whole time and i never change it

i'm continueing hearing this till the end

i just hope you understand the concept

i don't want you to get mad easily too its not good

MY LIFE = NOTHING

Few weeks just past

the day you left was my worst time

thinking of you leaving

i kept thinking over and over again

just like a cassette playing

and repeating the same old

song

few days pass after those sad tragedies

i thought i finally awake and realize

i know its for our own good

some how i also hope we can get along together well

everytime i post something or reply on your wall its like

your teasing me and freaking piss at me

without telling it i maybe can see deep within you

i hope thats alright even if you are mad at me

i would like you to take everything

all those anger out and release it

in front of me

if this is how you feel and if this satisfied you

if okay with it as long your happy and satisfied

i'm still lost in this dark realm

i really breathless without you

i can't stop thinking about you

i miss your kisses and hugs

your sweet voice

everything

......

i wanted to change to be a better person

but ...

i don't know how

why ...

because i dunno

what to be better

what to change

what can i do

i'm a useless person

maybe i'm the one no good for you

i can't make up my mind to be better

now ...

were like enemies

i always hope the word enemies wasn't true

i really hated when you left

i still have feelings on you

i still love you

and

i miss you so ...

as always i was never piss and angry at you ...

i wonder what are you thinking now

did you ever regret being with me ??

what do you feel now ??

i want to know but its not my rights to know

no matter i still care about you

i'm willing to wait

whether with hope or without it

i'm willing to try till the end of my life

the story is not over yet... not over

yet